trembling before you Lord.
silence…. peacefulness.
yah today has been a long day.
School - English, Physics, Calc in my new class.
Then went to Fairview for lunch and bussed down to UFair… asked around for information on CompSci, Business…
Thinking about instead of going into CompSci, i might just go into something else and major / minor in it, biz/tech,
possibly a waste of my technical side… but i back down to earth i don’t really want to just be doing computer stuff.
tho i luv it… Guelph Humber - Applied Computer Science with Diploma in Hardware / Software / Wireless tho…
it seems quite teh waste.. since they learn html, javascript, java then finally perl in like 3rd year…. thats like what i plan to do this summer hahaha but it is co-op which is cool… tho yah… probably better off with another degree
after that went back to church only to realize practice was cancelled and bussed back to Warden, ate dinner and went down for TCMC ~ tonight’s Aletheia program… want to thank Catherine especially for pushing me to be honest, when i wanted to be dishonest and just use my transfer tho we stopped for like 10 minutes, Thanks Cat! but yah… after when we got to the program….
Worship… at first i felt i couldn’t get into it; didn’t know songs… felt really awkward… didn’t quite click wasn’t intune too self consious
the sermon was alright… felt a bit lighter than what i’m used to… cause its a bible story format.. .but simple message that God uses ordinary ppl… in ordinary circumstances…. though i guess i’ve never really strived to be just ‘ordinary’ i’m nobody in particular, nobody exceptional…. just myself lil me. The challenge they put up tonight was to let God use me… my life… my all, to ‘write’ his name in History…. I will Offer up my Life… i wasn’t lifting my hands in singing… i didn’t want to let a sound come out of me… i was just trembling…. as i felt God’s presence pass over me…. and I wanted so much, so much to be wrapped in within his arms.. his love, spiritfire saturatng my lil soul. burning within…. and yeah…. want him to use me as his instrument…. to continuing to write his story into today, ‘now… tomorrow and forevermore’ as is cliche now adays..
i actually feel… i don’t know… really open free…. i want to go out and live for Him,
do what he wants me to do…. not what i want to do…. like man — enough of my silly antics, enough of my stupid desires.
Computer Science? ha.. its my core hobby; it’ll never be my professional; i don’t want to make something i like so much tedious to the point i don’t really like it… but the depth of knowledge, customization, tweaking will always be there… and vast for me to play with..
guess what i’m looking now… waiting on God.
University considerations - Business w/ Minor Computer, English w/ Minor Computer, History w/ Minor Computer, then (doubt it) do teaching… <
wells more rantage tomorrow i guess..
Ja~