.reflection
well today Sunday,
went to Church early at 7:45 to do AV, for service, Shirley and Benson did a great job! Didn’t need much of my help, except a sound technical difficulty, and for video lol, i think my help kinda messed it up; but good saves Shirley 
yah!
As for the Sermon… i think God put a lil jab to what i was talking about for the last few days? that friendship which i guess, in my own reflection i feel like i’ve grown a bit cold, passive to… don’t have the passion, the zeal, often times i even feel dread cause i dont’ know what to say, and i don’t want to be caught in those awkward times of silence, else, i don’t want to be just filling that void with my lil words which don’t seem to be very revelent, interesting or what not. I want to have a real genuine friendship. As much as it hurts when i sorta get brushed aside, i guess thats inpart my own doing. Just yah… like a few of my friends know… i often draw parrallels with my relationship, friendship if you will; with God’s love to His people… not to mention thats a direct result i guess when you try to learn it by example in the Bible… awkwardness.. but parallels, and whatever i pain, God comforts me, reminding me that… whatever pain, lonliness, or anything, is merely a glimpse of how i treat my Lord, My Love. So guess that goes w/ the cliche “what goes around comes around”. ha i guess its not that bad; nothing as extreme as Hosea or somebody *phew no marrying prostitute for me please God :p”
So yah… my own personal lil goal for this area, this cherished friendship is to be more dynamic, more passionate, and to not let legalism and what not… simmer that, and instead to just focus on God…. and let him control — let his fire shine through this vessel here.
Sunday School - Apologetics, as usual lots of really interesting ideas, thoughts, arguments.. nothing i guess that stood out that much today tho….
today’s fickle idea for career - English major - minor - compsci / divinity (the stuff my mind comes up w/ in the shower)
1000 Miles (Vanessa Calrton)
If I could fall, into the sky… do you think time would pass us by, cause you know i’d walk a thousand miles just to see you.
Tonight, i’ve got to really catch up on calc, class is at 2.6, i’m at 2.4, with a bit of fuzzyness on 2.3 (arg extended theorum)
the latter stuff i get though… so hopefully i’ll get this stuff pat down..
so off i go to that, Ja~!