sweet intimacy
Monday.. well Tuesday now, 12:11,
really tired, just did most of my work.. still got lots of compsci stuff to finish up, not enough time,
Arg… oh wells…
Today still pain within my little heart, still a scent of lonliness in my soul.
Back into routine, pretty hectic week + weekend since Sherksten, but i should be able to get my work done,
hopefully i’ll get Slax loaded to work my dad’s laptop by then..
but not even looking past then, i feel like i’m going to fall apart,
one part of me wants to recede into quietness, to think contemplate and go through my emotional ‘bliss’
other side of me wants to just accept it for now, and wait for God to reveal himself, cuase thats whats really matters
now is temporary, necessary but nothing is sealed.
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i guess describes how i feel… *sighs* still wonder why… well i know why but that still and close promise .abide.627.; our core promise before to wait… until we were ready, to save the best for the last… now it seems we enter the 4th party, and that beautiful love triangle (no God the middle of two ~ no not an stupid soap triangle)
oh wells, wahtever hte circumstnace, whatever the problem, God heals us all… fullfills us.
I guess i’m hoping a few things:
1. God continue to discipline me to abide in him — focus on what is at hand, and he will reveal whats the next step is
AND
2. We’ll recujoin again; i wish this would happen, but i am still just perry, simply me — nothing too too special here.
OR
3. God will lead me to another person (in his own time) who is the right one for me, beyond my own dreams, which i guess would just stop at #2.
bla so yah kiddies don’t get into dating/courting relationshps — even if you’re dead serious about it follow by the book and all,
as Joshua Harris says “The Right thing at the wrong time is still the wrong thing”
its fun.. yes… but if you’re serious and the other person isn’t as serous then the ‘not fun’ out weighs the ‘fun’
else… if you’re both serious (thats great, and that’d have been my wish) then well cherish, faithful, appreciate. you’re blessed, but don’t step beyond God’s will, don’t leave the path… love triangle.
God
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you him/her
Sweet Intimacy - when we’re so broken inside, so lonely so empty… we cry out to God he comes, and we bury our hurting little heads into his warm arms… and our tears dry on his robes… and all we feel is his peace, and joy and his gracious love!
wells i’m really tired gotta get rest and prep for tomorrow, School *yay*
~> hope i don’t get told by Mr. Chan,
nigh’