in mourning..
Well Today is rememberance day, ironically (since i’m such the sentimentalist) this day doesn’t really impact me much, I guess its just the whole thing about them poppies, as good as they are.. you wonder where does the money go? and my school’s principle’s ‘threatening’ us more initalized me to be ‘rebellious’ and protest by not wearing ne…
and I guess yah…. if i wore one, i’d be quite hypocritical… cause i don’t really remember much about that, oddly doesn’t struck me as all that important, yes i’m thankful for all them vets and what they did, but… War… Victory.. remembering the country’s past mistakes / trials in of itself doesn’t struckme as something i really want to commenmorate.
Yet still … *hats off to soldiers and all*
anyways yah… today we had the rememberence day assembly at our school and they invited 2 YOAH reps, which spoke on… respect, (cause of our lack of respect during worship…) brought out some really good parallels, but it really sickens me.. and inside really saddened that this school ‘christian’ by name… is still like this, even guests who walk in for the first time can see it, written everywhere… its like a big glowing RED FLUORESCENT SIGN - “GOD DOES NOT LIVE HERE” ugh… i guess waht really saddens me was after the insightful rebuke / correction from the two guys, many of my class mates mocked them, and just trampled over ‘pearls like swine’ — the objective truth, blatantly obvious truth — God’s messengers and stepped on…
so yah *sighs* not the greatest thing…
I want to do something.. yet the fellowship seems more of a frozen shell which restricts movement (bowl which covers light)…
seems so yeah… which i guess is our fault, lack of organization, lack of initiative, lack of passion… inner core disrcepencies,
and what i see…. as a soon coming downfall…
ship seems doomed to sink, shipwrek — can’t do anything on the ship but throw over the cargo and wait on God..
christianitywise… i guess that’ll have to happen on a self initialized level… rather than through the fellowship.
but yah..
tomorrow… Gabes is gonna get his wisdom teeth taken out, *ouch* praying for him.. hope he’s ok and he gets a quick recovery,
DataTest… after school, gonna go to STC w/ Cat / Char get a gift for Victoria, (party saturday), then probably come back home and start on my essay, and hopefully install Yoper (if its finished downloading..)
*sighs*
Set me on fire.. take this heart of mine, with your love inside,