moo New Years Eve
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Well New Year’s Eve today, and I guess I’ll post a short lil blog entry since its a *special* day,
I guess i’ll just talk about today, whence i woke up at like 8ish (after sleeping at 3) waking up groggy to a telephone call, in which my client sent me some crazy fax, on things to add to the x i’m working on, its pretty primitive, but putting lots of time into making it ‘ideal’ for her, which is a bit frustrating, takes a really long time, working now nearing 24 hours accumulatively, so lots of work, but i guess i get to learn a lot, and its flexible hours, (tho i’m screaming to finish it before school starts again), *smiles* so I’m having fun, bit of learning shifting over to dreamweaver MX (which rox so many times more than MSFP), and photoshop, getting a hang of the basics,
– this summer i really gotta learn PHP / PHOTOSHOP, and if possible do some stuff w/ 3dmax studio. (tho i gotta get a job too university *gulps*) so yah… i guess this job will be a nice lil boost to my savings, side bonus :), I really wanna get that camera down there in my last entry, its like $699 Retail, $599 boxing @ Sony store, chinese place i can get it for $540, gotta ask my uncle if he can get me a deal at BayBloor Radio, since its obselete, else i’ll have to order it online, $289 USD + 50 USD shipping? which goes to about $488.16 *gulp* i could upgrade and get an ew computer w/ that… tho a very sick camera nevertheless, (i could get a lower end too… tho photography it inspires me.. infaturation? maybe…. i’m still infaturated with hobbies on Linux / programming / gfx, so i dunno another cool in investment i’d really want to get into.
Anyways back to new year’s eve, after waking up and receiving the fax thing, we went out to yeur yuen (woodbine / denison rd), for yum cha, then went to Sears Warehouse (donmills / steeles) to get a black suit (haha cause its cheaper there) for my grandfather’s funeral? O.o i have no idea, since i don’t get told much at all about my grandfather’s current state… i’ll take that as a sign to prep myself for his departure…
Speaking of death, inspiration in that book Come Thirsty by Max Lucado, pretty inspiring, how he describes life in that… when some one dies, on this side of heaven (earth), its grim, everyone is wearing black and white, gloom, tears, sniffling, tissues being soaked, cold lonliness, dread.. yet on the other side (heaven itself) theres a great cloud of witnesses, angels singing, dancing, and welcoming you home…
I wonder… what utter paradoxi and quaint joy, would come out, if we started celebrating funerals like that, where we rejoice that our brother or sister has returned to God, and he no longer has to toil, on this world, no longer bound to this sinful frame called body,
be hard tho… i guess realizing that person is lost to you for now.. *sighs* — still be cool
Anyways @ sears we also checked out these really cool sofas and seats and such, and it was pretty sick, theres this nice recliner, that swirvles, has whole roll back function, nad you’re almost i guess 180 degrees flat, wondering how cool that luxerious that’d be— not for the tv, but for my computer lol, sleep at my computer (yah right!)
after that we went to markville, and I spent my $20 gift certificate on headphones (since mine are really busted, and i couldn’t find starfield), bought pencils and walked around looked at the camera i really want and the new model that came out to replace it (less features)
and i guess yah got home and did devos / dinner and now i’m writing this thing. Its kind of awkward not being at church today… I really miss my friends, I miss Gabes, Cat, Tim, Vivian, Adwin, Elaineee, how i just want to celebrate and talk, spend some time with them. feel like i sorta wasted yesterday when tim / viv / moyee came over, and we didn’t do much (cause we’re all introverts? or simply cause theres not htat much to do at my home :P) oh wells…
*sighs* bit of lonliness, but God is with me… so its only solitude which isn’t that bad, quiet peaceful, God.
still miss thems tho.
New Years… as usual, not much significance, even less that i’m not at church. odd — ever since i joined Aletheia, i haven’t been really into the fellowship, i still miss Hosanna a whole lot, even tho a good portion is up in Aletheia, my heart jus doesn’t seem to be there, maybe its school work? i have no idea.. this winter i’ve missed 2-3 things, Retreat, Mandatory*, Men’s Cell group and something else which doesn’t come to mind right now, seems i’m again adrift on the fellowship scene… i don’t really feel home in Aletheia, like my friends are here, mainly Gabes and Cat both whom i cherish a lot, and i treat as family, I really look up to Caeleb, Nathan they’re like unspoken older brothers, and Herman Chan 
he’s a chum! theres Dorcas big sister! no one else really… and half of them are moving up to hte new fellowship, and the rest to diff universities soon,
*sighs* less and less of that warm fellowship, more and more i feel like i’m yet again merely a shadow, not fitting anywhere except behind everyone, quiet, silent, unheard of.
yet God is in the middle of it all, and lately i’ve really been yearning to draw near to him,
*smiles* that book The Air I breathe (thanks Cat!) really inspired me… I’m gonna try to refocus this year and really get to know God, the serious way.
guess thats my new years’ ‘thing thing’ whatever you call those resolutions? promises? whatever.
*sighs*
On a much lighter and antic filled note..
Happy New Year — this year sets an end with moo cows, and poo cows, and brown cows and all sorts of cows.
so Moo to 2005.
