opium..
the drug which has caused thousands, if not millions to die,
(if not OD then from the war which it caused - ref’n - Briton’s Battle w/ China over HK)
the drug which seduces your mind with numbness,
and drips emptyness into your blood
it grasps your eyes, stealing livliness, and leaving nothing but void.
despair - is like that.
today has been an alright day…
but after getting home, and trying to sit down and work,
all colour has been stolen and replaced by that grey Opiate we know as Despair.
think shift to depression –
but not quite there,
I just feel drastically unmotivated to do anything,
except cry, pray, sleep.
even then
– my crying is in vanity - emptyness - seemingly reasonless
– my praying seems mindless, and lacking in depth
– sleep is dreamless, no real point, because i’m not truly tired; escape from reality?
so yes today has quite gone a wasted.
I have to do a Waterloo contest program, an English Story, my Schulic application — none of that is realy touched
and i probably won’t get to it today
*sighs*
lifelessness.
-fini-