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As I finally sit down after a long day, I find the house darkened as my family has gone to bed and I am the only one awake. The house is silent, except for my inconsistent typing, and the soft tunes singing from my speakers. It’s late, the clock on the bottom right of my screen yells eleven, and I know from previous nights, that its still young, I still have another two or three hours before I can fully lie down and close my eyes. It seems that as I continue on in this final grade of high school, that my days seem to grow more and more, while my nights less and less. Sometimes it feels like I’m already in university, I’m barely on pace in my studies, and I’m always finishing projects and essays at the very last moment. It’s just so overwhelming, at times I feel that it’s really beyond me, it feels utterly impossible to finish all the work. Yet no matter how late I sleep, no matter how early I wake up, I still press myself and manage to finish before the next day of school begins. Even so, I remember the many years of school before this. I remember how I used to be able to finish all my homework at school. Then when I got home, I would open a novel, and embark on a full-fledged adventure. I would get home, and play chess or design my webpage on the computer. I would do all sorts of fun and interesting things and not have to worry about my homework. Yet I guess, that as I grow up, there’s a new dimension to learning, a new level of complexity, and an even deeper level to the quantity of homework.
Similarly, as I was daydreaming in my English class about comparing my courses to relationships, I feel that as I grow up, these relationships or ‘courses’ become more complex and have a new depth difficulty to them. Just like kids, when we are young we can play with anyone without much of an introduction or history. We can take different courses, do different activities, and it is all fun and games to us. When we grow up however, these games fade away, and our compatibility with our friends is hindered by cliques, arguments, gossip, or simply personality differences. Our courses are caught up by our own study habits, extracurricular responsibilities, skills, our own strengths and weaknesses, and our basic ability to be innovative and creative.
As I read this list and reflect on my courses, I find that my education is basically one big social environment in which I interact with my courses. It seems that each course takes a different personality, a different role in my life. I myself take a different opinion, and standing with each of these courses. Some are my beloved ones, others are my friends, and still others are simply mutual acquaintances.
Not to brag, or flatter, but I believe that my most treasured course in my hierarchy of friends would definitely be Writer’s Craft. Here is my pretty faced girlfriend whom listens to my outpour of cries, my sorrows, and my whimsical ratings, and simply supports me in my hopes to get into University. Although she is a gem, and is the most precious in my heart, she doesn’t come without her own needs. Like any deep relationship, our love is built on many late and long hours of talking, grueling hours arguing over important issues, and simply hammering out the misunderstandings between us. Like tonight, I often find myself going into the latest of hours and simply talking with her, and listening to what she has to say. Its simply love that keeps me awake at these hours, though I might s run out of things to say, or just want to close my eyes and sleep, I know that she’s my world, and she deserves every second I can give her.
English is another fine young lady in which I find interest in. She is that beautifully charming, yet flirty friend whom I always seem to work well with. She’d be that possible girlfriend, had she been a more moral character. Although we work so well together, her flirty attitude sometimes causes her to be unpredictable and actually cause damage to the friendship that we have. Even so, because of our strong friendship that we have built over the years, I am always able to console with her about my issues, and find a feminine perspective to help understand what my dearest love is feeling.
Another close friend whom is very dear to me is Organizational Studies. He is my best friend of old, and has shared countless memorable experiences with me. He is the one whom is always there to listen to my frustrated outcries, and also always there to celebrate with me no matter the occasion. I treasure Organizational Studies, because he is one of the most loyal friends I know, and although we don’t talk as much as we used to, we often go out on weekends and do crazy stuff together. On top of the recreation, he’s also great buddy to work with, he is always punctual and always looking out for places I could improve on. Although the word devotion would serve him injustice, it is the closest word I have that can even begin to describe him.
Computer Science, like Organizational Studies is another great, great friend. We used to hang out together when we were kids, all three of us. We would go out to the beach on summer days and gather little glass crystals, shells, and feathers. Then we would return home and make nice big paperweights which we would then give to our other friends. Just like Organizational studies, Computer Science is another reliable and trustworthy friend I could literally trust all that I own with. What’s upsetting is that even though we have such a great friendship, circumstances broke us apart. At the end of grade eight, his family moved to Malaysia, and we got a bit distant because of the differences in our time. Even so, with the use of technology, I can easily communicate with Computer Science via the keyboard on my computer. A few simple keystrokes, and we’re all caught up and it’s as if he hadn’t left for Malaysia at all.
Although I spend most of my time with my closest of friends, there are also several people in my life that I am acquainted with. One of these is Calculus. Calculus is a newer friend whom I met only last year. We’ve had several disagreements but so far we work fairly well together. The biggest challenge I have is to understand what Calculus is saying. Since he is new to Canada, I often find his grammar and pronunciation somewhat harder to understand. Despite this, I really enjoy his company, and in midst of my busy schedule of appointments, I always try to make at least an hours worth of time to talk with him and get to know him better. It is my current dream to develop this friendship, so that soon he can be added with the rest of my friends so that we can enjoy life together.
Another friend, I am somewhat acquainted with is Data Management. This guy is the remote acquaintance I often find myself working with in various projects. Other then the in the workplace, I really don’t know much about him. He seems nice enough most of the time, except when he’s having a bad day, and decides to wreck havoc on my life. Most of the time, he does this playing the most annoying and confusing tricks on me at the most inappropriate times. As a result, I often get quite agitated and annoyed at how Data Management is behaving. Even so, I guess it is still my obligation to try and be as patient and understanding as I can. I might hate it, but at least I might find out why he acts in such a peculiar way.
One final friend that I have is a guy by the name Physics. He used to hang out around with me, Organizational Studies, and Computer Science. Yet a few weeks ago, things just weren’t working out. My workload and my divided attention between my other friends were really taking over the time that I had. I occasionally called Physics to see how he was doing, yet the calls became really vague, and we seemed to have a real hard time understanding each other. The sudden withdrawal of time took a real toll on a friendship, and although we were dedicated, we just didn’t want to keep up phone calls for the sake of having a phone call. As a result, I talked with him and we resolved to let our efforts to keep in touch fall to only the occasional birthday card, or Christmas card. It’s a real pity I think, that I had to give up such an interesting friendship in order to make room for the rest of my activities. Yet inside, I know it was the right thing to do, and with the extra time I can develop a stronger bond with Calculus instead.
From this brief description of my various friendships, I find that the relationship between my courses, my interests, and the time spent on each subject, seem to all contrast relationships in the real life. The more interested I am in a course, the more time and effort I obviously spend in it. With these two vital ingredients, the bond between any two people will definitely flourish and yields a good relationship.
Just like my relationship with my ‘girlfriend’, its 1:19 in the morning, and I’m still up messaging her on keyboard. I would like nothing more to just crawl into the comforts of my bed, and just close my eyes in restful unconsciousness. But until I’m done talking about us, and she finishes commenting and reflecting on what I say, I really have no will to go to bed.