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darkness clouds overhead, as the stars blink out of existance.
the delicate inflammation of aveoli, as cells squim and die.
oh desolate sky, where has your bleak sunset gone?
so its monday, hark the day closer to untimely demise
lungs in pain, throat congested… sputtering like a wretched animal.
how i wish i had the energy, the health… to stand…
nothing — empty. lost and confused…
whatever the reason my lord? to let such strife come over me?
whatever the reason i submit to it… my life is yours..
i bid you take it…. i can haven one of it… cleanse it purify it… transform it, destroy it.
just swept with internal tears… inner most longing for you.
oh lord, my god…. take me from this sufferable haze, take me take me!
to your wondrous heavens, where i shall stay snug in your hands
and feel your comforting breath above my head..
my loving father…
i’m dying…. have mercy…
i see myself far off from this scene of sleep, yet if it is so… i pray you take me safely
*tears* plz Lord… let me live another day— let me live longer… i don’t want to leave my friends… as miserable and ungrateful a wretch i might be.. i want them to be happy and i want to serve them in humble love…. plz lord.. spare me…. i submit to your will–whatever it is…. but this fear in me… to leave :’( undone…. you’ve planted these aspirations so deeply within me..
i don’t believe you’d take me now…. as much as i hurl out… each cough i thank you that i still have air to cough out…. each time i cry now… i thank you for the seconds of life…. Jesus…. save me.