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yes for those of you who don’t know yet i have my prom in a few hours… (prom is short for promenade which in turn has a deviant definition of taking a walk — hence the title of this entry) just got everything prepped up,l got stuff ironed, washed up gelled my hair, just waiting till around 5ish - 6 whence my dad gets home and drives me over… and thus at 6:45 we begin the night some have appraised as “the night of all nights” or something to that stupor… to me its seems to be another party, another party, seemingly my sentimentalist side hasn’t caught light that it is one of the last nights i’ll see several of my fellow classmates.. which to me is ironically and selfishly not too big of a deal. Its been a long grueling 4 years but i think the few friends that i have made will remain as friends to the next coming 4 grueling years and quite a few surpassing that — ‘transcending through time’ as i usually like to say.

There’s gabes (not gonna see you after prom till saturday at your game.. and then monday *sniffles*), nathan (remember to lift your foot like a girl when you hug your ‘date tonight’ :P), johnny (grr — you didn’t agree to come with mee!), adrian (chicken essence), terry (sorry - i couldn’t show you more of God’s love… now time’s about up– pray that you’ll meet him someday), tammy (friiieend!), joyce (enthusiastic… a bit too enthusiastic! odd how our lil ‘clqiues’ sorta mirror each other), amanda (aspiring writer!soar like northern wind does blow) — and the few other VISA students whom i’ve been getting to know as of late… ck (haha your antics w/ ms. brooks — scares me), Dickson, Yami, Sabrina and the other few that i don’t quite remember heh… and the roll of thems fine acquainences - jon, stephen, mike, tom, nathan, jc, and so on and so on…

despite the list of ppl i’ll be saying bye to… despite the farewells… i feel a deep sense of stupor (subconscious word for today) i feel but not really… *shrugs* prom tonight — gonna be fun i hope i’ll make it fun by being my usually hidden pleasant delightful self. afterall if everything else isn’t important to me i know that my friends are — and the reason i’m going is because my friends want me to and so i desire/delight to go w/ them — so guess i need to shift my paradigm/focus for a bit — to enjoy and ‘live it up as a high school graduate’ before i’m enslaved into be a ‘university student’ lol — i think the thing that i’m a bit uncomfortable is spending so much money on myself… haha me and my ‘cost effectiveness’ i don’t like spoiling myself with stuff… especially temporary delights — rather invest in smaller things which last longer to savour the flavours… tonight is gonna last a while… but not too long. a bit past sunrise and then we’d be turning home — and like the morning mist d the night will only linger on our minds for a second before it dissipates into our vapourous memory… where the true form and experience lies muddled up from our vision and recollection is only clearly seen on the pictures that we take… oh stupor oh stupor!

haha wells guess i’m gonna be off… gotta pack up the last bits of stuffs
flashlight/camera/battery/bag/clothes/smile

*cheers to tonight, for memories past, memories to come, and the friendships that have been forged through fire like endurence, may these friendships transcend through time and pass with us to the very end of ourage - bliss*

prayers
-sherman is sick : & he has (hard) Core Group camp
-gabes/carrie + nathan/alison & whatever other couples and ‘fun birds’ are going - spirit’s protection
-prom night (prom/afterparty/bbl Tea/beach) - to be a time which isn’t filled with alcohol / drugs / sex
-transportation - saftey
-energy : drivers / discernment / awareness of His presence.

+update on laptop — it has been received from fedex… so maybe i’ll get it by this sunday and get something to play with while i let teh backburner (subconscious) maul over design details on my site..