sour and bitter.
hm.. feeling rather sour and bitter right now — kinda unhappy & upset about myself, parents - frustration thats become thats imbued. yesterday was grad and it was pretty fun i guess — ceremonious ritualistic bliss… hms i’ll talk about it tonight when i get home… sorta just need to rant and throw some darkness around, i guess one of the things which is upsetting me is this feeilng that i’m being misunderstood… by my parents — annoyances which plague a young person’s life. just so ugh.. after grad i was downstairs and knowing that my mom / grandma were upstairs i went up skipping the party and the food to take a few pics w/ them… so i go up and my dad is sorta fumbling with the camera… and saying this and that… but we manage to get a few pics taken — and i want to go back down cause we’ve just spent ‘x’ amount of time looking for them, taking pictures standing around, and all that and really ppl are leaving.. so i withdraw and my mom somehow gets upset at me cause i appeared ‘rude’ that i didn’t take enough pics w/ my them… and i’m like :O i came up just for that purpose — and i only had a taste of punch, didn’t even eat cake… and i’m missing so many pics downstiars! >.< but whatever i went downstairs to go finish off the last bit of the lil party... missing so many pics >.< *sniffles* ugh!!! then today in the morning my mom was talking about that, and even called me during work.. so i'm sorta ugh... yah pissed --- but i'm out for today... downtown for me w/ gabes/kat/sherm/ali?/carrie? so bleh i guess... can't find my stupid CD player that i lent my dad... thinking of bringing my camera.... daw.. so hot outside.... gotta walk 25 min... ahh so bitter... so much darkness. hopefully in the silence of walkign down and subwaying.. i'll clear up... and let God's word flush through me... man.
got to read those booklets for york and pick courses for tomrorow…. so behind.. so frustratign ahhhhh
forward looking it’ll be over soon.. gone — oblivion.
more on grad & after grad later la.