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tehes indeed!
10:40 right now, just got back from Cae & Holly’s Jack and Jill party!! yay *cheers* and driving Yam home pretty fun and of funny stuff tonight.. as usual a bit awkward with the whole ‘not quite’ fitting ‘deal’ and our lil cabal of ppls just wandered around together haha special cheers to swirlee, blkmage, and of course the dazzling model for our toilet paper gown euphemia hehes burning melting them gummy bears… and fun miscellanious things — AND those yellow gummi bears did wander out of the bucket and decide to live in the carrot cake… they must have! how else could they have gotten there? lol so much silliness.. oh wells its fun

hm.. last day of work tomorrow.. and its probably going to be a half day… funs.. wonder what my pay will end up beign… on the ‘estmated record’ i’ve worked 72 hours… and my pay is $8 tho Mr. Cook (my employer) is thinking of raising it to $x amount… or so i’ve been informed… but yah today at work was pretty boring just worked away in the junior lab… making a nice streamlined mindless process… haha good ol’ demming wheel and mass production concepts.. basically demming is to think up innovative ways to redo and improve.. so basically you do it first way… then stop and think about it… and try a different way… streamlining efficiency — mass production well, break taht down to simple steps and each person is incharge with 1 step so through teh whole day they will spend all their energies, and master that process and do it most efficiently…. really mindless… but gets it done — so thats basically what i did breaking open the case, removing teh metal slab, throwing in the harddrive screwdriving it back in, ide / power cable, all the wiring in the back (peripherals) power — if it works i close the case, if not — power down push ide cables a bit power up and close case. all for teh whole morning… utterly mindless tedium.

tho throughout most of the morning.. after i streamlined the process i just mindlessly thought about several things… in depth thought while plugging cables into lil holes… fun. i revisited the thoughts of love… and what is its exact essence… haha all philosophical, then i thought about the friends i have… and how i don’t really have that many ‘friends’ but… of the few i have close friends… some ranging from friends for life, from far and wide, sunshine or storm — who will just be there, and whom i love from the most bottom of my heart… and them to me, tho usually we have spels of not talking yet when we get together its right back where we left off (inner circle), theres my friends who i talk a lot to… my ‘inspired friends’ — why inspired? good question… i guess i talk to them more so more inspiration? — and i guess they’re the ones who looked past the dark wall of weird/eccentricity/lonerisms and have gotten to know me a bit more… — the ones whom i also hold dear to my heart, talk much more to, my usual hang out group… kind of funny how most of us… don’t really reside in a specific ‘group’ more just hopping back and forth —-

then i thought back to my very first best friend — not sure exactly who it is but not including my mommi, it might have been a particular older girl named.. Stephany? Sarah? i don’t remember — i think she was a singaporen girl who was in our lil group… and she was like an older sister to me… while i, well i was the lil fighter always biting evil ppl or ppl i didn’t like… or looked particularly yummi *kekeke*

secondly… grade 2 i think… there was Jeffrey my chinese/jewish friend whom my most vivid memory was making him cry… cause i betrayed him >.< (this is probably why i have so much hate against treason now... cause i did it.. and in the very depths of my childhood -- i felt guilt and yucky :() i remember Anthony some kid who had all this neat stuff brought walkie talkies (they were cool cause they were electronic) and they were like you can't play! (to jeffrey) and they said to me... but you can as long as jeffrey dosen't come.. i looked back at him then at the other guys.. .and went with them :S treason :'( i later went back and found him crying... and said sorry *sighs* other kwl times was just the whole StarWars-ness running through the forest on our imaginary forest speeders... and shooting storm troopers with our pieces of wood that resembled guns that we coloured with Lyra Pencil crayons in class... i remember i had one which was nice and small and compact, the shaft of my blaster had a black crease in it (centre of the tree) and i coloured it orange to show the blaster energy in it :p, at its back it hand a nice snug lil handle which fit my hands then.. and a few knobs for the 'saftey' or in my case.. the stun settings --- oh the fun times... i think i was usually Han (fav character :p) or other ppl who weren't jedi... cause jedi are kidna weird but jeffrey liekd that stuff so i just let him be it :) another fond memory was his bar mitz vah which i went to, pretty party which nice chicken / fish at Black Creek Pioneer Village... i remember hearing him cuss a few times.. (since he went to public school) and i was O.o and distanced myself slightly away from him... didn't hang out as much tho we went to each others' hosues once or twice... his brother played Command and Conquer on PS, and we just did kwl roleplaying starwarsy things... hehes.

Grade 3-4 — i think it was christophe, my fun french friend who read a lot w/ me haha good ol’ starwars books, i remember he first lent me his Crystal Star with the pretty pinkish cover… while i had that book by Steve Perry… what was it called? Shadows of the Empire… some story between the Empire Strikes Back and The Return of the Jedi… pretty good read… a bit weird with the whole vibe & seduction thing… O.o but yah Christophe was cool, tho… i don’t remember much about him… we went to the Richmond Hill Library…. he was my partner for the black creek pioneer village thing (we had to dress up as pioneer kids and spend a week learning at Black Creek… haha i’m sure the school got paid to use us as their actors… grr), sat next to me and we wrote with on slate with chalk and stuff… kwlz i guess

Grade 5-6 — no one… went to Three Fishes… i spent time with a bunch of youngins Andrew and Amreet… who were pretty cunning… wolves they were.. my indian? middle eastern i think? type friends… pretty kwlz i guess.. dunno.. don’t think anyone else can be considered my best or even ‘good’ friends… pretty empty… best memory? acquiring one crazy bone and then trading them until i had a nice collection with bombers and lots of stuff — i even got the rarest crazy bone! eggy! lol piece of plastic fad! course then i traded crazy bones over for pokemon cards… and after all that crazyness.. i got suckered into spending cash :S but yes… quite the scheming deal maker i was…

grade 7 - Jerry!!! haha *sighs* still miss you lots — we should d2 sometime lately acquired it — tho learning moderation so lets find sometime — you’re in Australia time right now… so 15 hours diff? find sometime in the morning next week or something but yah… grade 7 opened and i was a new kid at yorkland, and the only person i really knew was gabes who was such a kind & loving friend to me… tho i didn’t talk to him much… cause friendship circle clash :p (me and my i dont’ want to be around popular gang craze back then) — so i mainly hung around gabes’ other friends… mainly lanrick (haha what a joker — power rangers & pikachu rofl) and Jerry whom we just hit off second half of the year… playing good ol pretty things like StarCraft BroodWar, Badminton (lol i tried out for the team… tho i didn’t know the rules… and still don’t quite know the rules.. let alone have any technique :p), we played hockey i think… oooh and when we went over to your house to do that health project of ours… haha codeine? opium fun fun — so much history / influence which is still w/ me today— i remember feeling sad cause you had asthma/the skin thing : but i loved you just teh same haha fondest memory our gaming the day before you left… and we took a picture.. tho there was no film in the stupid camera *roar* — your infrequent calling of me on the phone long-d… and of course writing that lil poem that pulled me through — (you did write it!! lol i swear :p)

grade 8 - wow… after losing jerry… depression yet grade 8 was just superb… Gabes took me under his wings, and introduced me to the ‘crew’ as we used to call it, there was my bro JC, big man nathan (lol tubby!), carrie (lol — i remember when johnny’s hair was longer than yours :p), catherine, haiddee (*sighs* — sorry for making a fool of myself), regina rofl, wendI with an I, whom else.. mehs fun times… till the end when i ran into a brick wall lol (if you know what i’m talking about *points to gabes/nathan) don’t laugh too hard :p as for memories with gabes well there’s just too many

grade 9-11 - after infatuation and foolery died down… i became a lot more serious and deep in thought.. i began philosphizing and reasoning some more…my new best friend was vicky who became my ‘bestest friend’ — through sadtimes and wonderment, and happytimes… stayed pretty strong, close ( a bit too close but nevertheless she was my bestest friend… whom’s memories — tho i rather regret now, and disliek mentioning — i will cherish… for whatever they were worth…

of course through all of that — i also want to mention Catherine who was there along the way (hm.. why does it feel like i’m doing a shoutouts type thing now?) who’s been there for me for like ages lol since we were back in kindergarden (as if kids grew on trees) tho i have no recollection of you… you’re the best Cat +i didn’t take your stickers!! good times.. and forgotten memories.

a few fun thigns to think about also were the few ‘good friends’ i picked up along the way who i didn’t really acknowledge as my ‘best friends’ tho i somehow managed to be their best friends…. i hear this from external soruces… which is weird…
i believe sherman was one… tho i sank into my nest of romance.. .and that subtly tore that down sorry sherman.
stephen? not too sure on this — mehs
johnny — who this year at jmc he called me his best friend to his friends… and was like wow — but yah welcome to my inner circle, buddy accountability partners! yeah!
a few other kiddies…

its weird i think…. and i wonder sometimes if the bit of sincere friendship i show some ppl somehow elongates into a thunder of friendship to them… how fortunate i have that i am surrounded by so many close friends… *sighs*
but yes.. cheers to my ‘innnerCircle’ and ‘inspired’ special friends
Jerry/Gabes/Cat/Johnny/Shirley/Tim/Adwin *cheers*

haha … so sentimentally fun… what else did i think about… hms… i don’t remember… mehs
its late 12:21 - got work tomorrow … so guess i’ll write a bit more if i remember or think up more crazy stuff.

once again *cheers*