my day…
frustrations and bitter annoyances… are what my life connote at this very present time that i write this.
inside there is an anger welling up with a fiery flame..
twisting and churning… wanting to spring out in a sudden out burst of rage.
wanting consume, and destroy all matter it touches
to burn, and plaster dark char onto the very surface
leaving each piece as a sign of worn desolation..
a mark of destruction.
bla bla bla…
hm… annoyances boo..
not very fun when someone asks me to help them with something, and then i get scolded after helping them… for having a ‘bad attitude’… because i want them to hurry up so i can do the stuff that i want, instead of explaining it to them for the 3rd-4th time… and not going into details about what .png files are, and why one should save them as .png if one is looking for transparency… boo..
yes - i know more childish upsettedness is once again upon me… inciting violent fury upon my subconscious impulses… how utterly demeaning, and driven with dark emotions. not to mention rather selfish… and full of bad attitude >.< argh --- i recognize it in all rationale and reason, yet enter into the field of the environment everything seems just so ugh... !! i'm sputtering like a child over petty things... grr...
i really don’t have much to talk about, or blog… as usual my introverted lil self whom has nothing to talk about except for ‘nothign’ which i can rant on for pages and pages…. which i think is begin to scare away some of the ppl who read my blog… haha — yes.
today was an uneventful day… went to Leslie / Finch — dad’s lil ‘excavation’ that he brought us on with his men’s group friends, promising lots of fun with new friends who were around my age, from both high school and university, and i could go biking and take pictures of pretty flowers… and all that fanciful glee… so being rather reluctant and skeptical…. i decided fine i’ll go since i was under the impression that i was forced to go… hence making me move my own arrangements to accomodate this ‘family’ outing… so what happened when we got there? well… most everyone else’s kids didn’t show except for Tracy and her sis who were soemwhat younger (still pleasant company), and we went to a ‘park’ which was literally bathed in green. nothing good to take pics of… except for a few coloured weeds… which were ugly.. the supposed ‘park’ was jsut a bike trail taht was bustling with activity… bike groups going through it… didn’t quite feel like nature… and there really wasn’t much to do. i just walked and talked pleasantly with the adults… which i guess is fun, and gave some impression i was a ‘good kid’ by speaking in fluent chinese, and having a bandaid in my wallet when it was needed… psh… vanities. superficial vanities… after going back ate lunch… played some big 2 which has of last year hit the most midnless game ever… despite all strategy, theorizing, the mental counting of cards…. its lost its flavour… ended up just watching malcolm in the middle afterwards… and i sunk into a nice sleepy stupor… ugh boredom!
hm… blasting loud music… right now …. it hurts my years >.< but matches the thunderous storm which resounds in the deep pits of emotion.
I love png transparency. Good old alpha. Of course, near impossible to use on the internet, what with ie hacking png transparency into oblivion.
its true… after muddling around w/ png.. w/ my dad he said it didn’t work cause he opened it up in IE and it had this ugly grey box in what was suppose to be transparency ugh!!
That 1200$ could have also probably been used to clear up debts owed by DC/ZC and Awakening, as well as Hosanna.
But I agree, many of these things are just aesthetic.
It’s like CSS, basically.
Makes everything pretty…
But once everything is pretty, will the Message itself be so grotesque?
Or rather, will it be so disfigured, it can’t be recognized, resulting in people coming to other people, rather than coming to GOD?
Let’s say we make a colour handout that costs 400% more and it brings say five people to Christ eventually. Now let’s say we didn’t spend that 400% on colour handouts and put it into something else that eventually brings twelve people to Christ, but not the original five because we used black and white. Is that better? Numbers-wise, it looks better, but we had seventeen people that we could have brought to Christ but we could only get twelve. Does that mean then that we don’t get those five other people because we thought that spending 400% more on handouts wasn’t worth it?
I’ve been reading this site called churchmarketingsucks.com. It deals with such issues as design and other media stuff. In my opinion, aesthetics are important. Why? If it’s not good, then it’s distracting. It’s the same reason for having A/V stuff. If we churn out bad handouts and flyers, it’s distracting, and it doesn’t attract people to even consider our church or whatever it is we’re doing. What’s the point in spending a few thousand dollars on a sound system? To increase the quality of our worship and to reduce distractions. What’s the point in spending more for a well designed web site or handout? Increase quality, decrease distractions.
The problem I’m worried about with the CAT Ministry, as it’s so often called (yes, it doesn’t make sense), is mainly with the computer-y side of things, mainly because that’s the only side I have experience in. Basically, we have people who know how to use software like Photoshop and people who can code, but we don’t have people who can design yet.
For instance, I am not an artist. Yeah, I can use computers to help me, but at the end of the day, I still can’t draw. Same with a lot of people. Except that instead of knowing to look for high quality pictures to work with, a lot of people are content with using clip art. Same with fonts. I realize that I’m not schooled in the art of typography, but I try to pick type and arrange it in a way that looks alright, and not using any font I think is cool. Same with coding. Yes, I can code HTML really well, but that doesn’t mean the code is structured or designed well.
Basically, I see a value in having this creative arts ministry, and I see value in increasing the quality of our productions and materials aesthetically. I agree with you though that something is just not working out about it.
i agree with you on the that tim, the value in spending that extra x amount, but see if we spend that x amount on a laser printer, the $400 for printer and $100-300 on a catridge every few months $400 gets you a basic HP colourlaser
i think if we want to to get colour hand outs — we should just go to a print shop… staples/print3 or those chinese places, buying a printer is overhead cost, its a fixed cost which includes depreciation of printer, catridges… might i also mention for most of these low end printers… the colour catridges… EACH cost around $150 - there being 4 catridges
black - $78-$150 , Cyan $150, Magenda $150, Yellow $150
Drum - $100 x pages?
so lets see.. assuming we run out of ink all at the same time :p
we pay $528 in ink… for a printer catridge. hm.. go figure :p
as for page yields.. depends i guess..
for sure the cost / page will be cheaper… 16 cents, rather than teh 26 that is often charged…
but more overhead… and we wouldn’t use it that often…
so trade off is liquid assets or fixed costs..
i’m sorta sitting on teh fence for this issue… about the printing… i acknowledge i’ve a rather narrow perspective…
+thanks tim for sharing your views..
i think what is most pushing me off is the direction — aesthetics is pretty and all…
but what is the spiritual direction?
bleh.
ultimately its authorities’ decision… submission, submission, submission.