blissful work.
hms — haven’t really found to really write and think about my testimony thing i wanted to write, i keep coming home around 9 or so cause of family dinners and what not.
but yeah — i started work this past Saturday downtown at Bay Bloor Radio in the shipping department, restocking new inventory which comes every few hours, retreiving inventory for the sales staff… anything from headphones, to stereos, to dvd players, speakers, ipods, to fun HD tvs haha thankgoodness for LCDs!! it’d die lugging a huge CRT around :p
i dunno working 7 days a week, having only New Years / Christmas off, its pretty interesting — i don’t really feel the weekends its just sorta rolls on, and my job is pretty fun i guess — like i don’t really know much about stereos and entertainment dealies, but its fun to lug around some box with a fancy brands and nonsense serial numbers YS2629048 or some random deali and write it down on the receipt and check it off from inventory, and watch the other guys and learn like that. 
– however, what i find is that man it is so hard to live my spirituality, that is to be in constant communion or constantly seeking God throughout the day, like the whole world of ‘working’ is just so jammed with busyness that its really really hard, can’t really afford a spare moment to think about stuff cause then i’d end up gettign the wrong colour for whatever music system i’m getting… or just fail to acknowledge what someone says…
Off times tho — that is subwaying there / back & at home, i’m reading Joeie’s book Read, Think, Pray Live some book on Lectio Divina for some inspiration, whispers of prayers.. here and there but just its so hard!
oh wells — He’s there whether i am fully aware or not.
Another struggle i’m having is to be open and friendly and jsut to learn to talk in general, ugh… my introvertedness / ‘niceness’ is sorta getting in my way of ‘merging’ with the corporate culture, like yah i’m making some friends, make small talk to sales ppl like ‘here you are, like a bag? have a nice day, good night’ and stuff like the casual friendliness but like i don’t really know anyone… just mere pleasantaries… I really want my few weeks working here to be something different, like hey i’m not gonna make any life long super close friends for sure but i want to be known i don’t want to just be the silly n00b stock boy who messed up the s51 cable and doesn’t know where the more special gadgets / speakers are… like boo, i wanna stand out, i want to live my faith boldy — not to impress values but to love & serve.
lots to think / pray now to rest up…. *yawns* good night
– hope to get that testimony thing up soon ~