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I haven’t really been able to concentrate on devos tonight, sorta reading but… can’t seem to really quiet down my heart/mind… perhaps i sense an urgency, an unrest, anxiety? i don’t know..

yet… God’s given me an answer to my question.

*1 Timothy 1:3-6 NKJV*
_As I urged you when I went into Macedonia — remain in Ephesus that you may charge that they *teach no other doctrine*, nor give heed to fables and endless geanealogies, which *cause disputes rather than godly edification which is in faith.* Now the purpose of the commandment is *love from a pure heart, from a good conscious, and from sincere faith,* from which some having strayed have turned aside to *idle talk*_ [emphasis mine]

I read that verse on the subway and just reread it in my attempt to quiet down… but just in reflection, and responce to my petty worries…

the fact that i have this worry and fear that it might provoke / incite some sort of dispute… I should remain still and not shae the tongues part… since though it may play a role in edification for some, it wouldn’t really be beneficial for the most part.. And on top of that, like i was saying before — the point isn’t tongues its Jesus — so all this extraneous talk / worries is in very essence *idle talk* Rather, if i am to share.. i need to do it from a pure heart, a good [clear] conscious, and sincerely in faith — out of love and edification of others.

*Love, Hope, and Faith.*

Love is obvious, Hope and Faith are perhaps less evident, but i’m wondering at my statement ‘if i leave tongues out i wouldn’t be giving credit to God’ but… tongues itself is primarly for the edification for God Himself — and hey he knows, and whether i talk about it or not… thats irrevelent to the point…

Hope / Faith — is more seeking God’s will i think.. whether or not to step out and share… whether or not he will make anything of silence or speech…. and Hope that whatever happens he will bring revival and awakening…

Spirituality, Discipleship… all these big ‘christian words’ that are so abstract… they each boil down to the core of christianity — a relationship with Jesus Christ..

*hmms*