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I feel an urgency to write / work at the discipleship group idea.

*prayer requests:*
for love, humiity, communion with God, wisdom, direction, guidiance, humility, and depth.

for those that God has put on my heart to minister to.

*urgency*

*edit:*
wednesday — lots of good conversations, bouncing ideas off friends at CCF — the ’scary’ concept seems to have subsided, but the reality is pressing… finished my outline today, just gotta find time and space to write. and more to seek deeper in God, deeper, deeper.

thursday — lots on my mind, the struggle of a writer — discipline to actually get to writing, all the more impossible when there’s school to be done, and lots of self/God searching — cause this is what God has put on my heart to say — not my own random message, like there needs to be less of me and more of Him. So much harder that writing is supposedly one of my strengths… and to depend on Him for not just content, but style, and presentations. Regardless… as each day passes by without writing — he reveals a bit more into this unfathomable depth of ‘relationship with Him’ — other things on my mind … i dreamt of working at Bay Bloor last night — and today in the morning my dad announced to me that there was an opening, and pending for me to work on fridays and/or saturdays. That once ‘ideal’ / prayer become a reality… but now i wonder do i really want it, and more it on God’s heart that i accept it? The question ‘is it from satan to distract me’ sorta floats in the back of my mind… but Every good and perfect gift comes from Him, the father of Lights right? its just a matter of us not corrupting that ‘gift’ but to seek him more with His gifts…

bla — I must get to work, i shall stop blogging till i get that paper done.