flux : inconsistancy.
to see Him deeper…
to come, to try, to die and to fail.
to be sought by Him deeper….
to trust, to walk, to live and fly.
life trancends these meagre distractions;
the frustrations of youth, the vanity of age.
a faltering donkey, does stumble and fall
so too the reign of pride and judgement..
my heart i write, in weakness’ estate,
and break into stumbling… a crash of late.
where darkness storms, and temptations do follow.
so a world upon its own, does cloud in self delusion.
A heart rests still, redeemed and saved
does seek His bosom, for closer embrace.
To hear His voice, tender and sweet
whispering sweet affections… in my shatteredness break.
so a yearning instilled, and fire does light.
not to do, not to sing, but in Him delight.
To seek You more, and to be sought by You-
Is all this heart can offer…. its You I desire.
And backward shadows, and crimson flames do strike.
I yearn to hold steadfast… to come and die.
to submerge into You, to love into You.
To be Graced into You, to be Romanced into You.
I want… I desire… I need You Lord…
seek me, break me… speak! I cry out to You Lord…
*James 1:6*
But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for he who doubts is like a wave of the sea driven and tossed by the wind.