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I love family !! Today has just been an awesome awesome day with family! and really just a reminder and the realization of how much a blessing that family really is to me
Like this afternoon, we skipped out on jaffray’s annual father’s day bbq, and went home to eat, relax and chat under this new gazebo we just bought yesterday….

The sun shining overhead, resting in the sade… with the breeze shifting back and forth in a peacable swing… so relaxing… mmm.

then after lunch, we moved our weekly family worship / prayer time outside — me playing my bit of guitar and leading in singing whilst they were sang in one accord; off key but mmm! worshipping Him, Father God, Dearest Beloved Jesus, Holy Spirit — unity, one family, so good!! After that we read 1 Peter 4:7-11,

*Serving for God’s Glory*

7 But the end of all things is at hand; therefore be serious and watchful in your prayers. 8 And above all things have fervent love for one another, for “love will cover a multitude of sins.” 9 Be hospitable to one another without grumbling. 10 As each one has received a gift, minister it to one another, as good stewards of the manifold grace of God. 11 If anyone speaks, let him speak as the oracles of God. If anyone ministers, let him do it as with the ability which God supplies, that in all things God may be glorified through Jesus Christ, to whom belong the glory and the dominion forever and ever. Amen.

did some sharing, and some prayer time — just seeking God’s heart, admonishing/edifying one another…. seeking healing and forgiveness for one another…

But in relation to that verse — it talks about prayer, loving one another, and ministering in the various ways which we are equipped… and looking at my family its mmm! I’m just so grateful — that God made us different, each one of us; not to bring strife but to complement and support each other in those times of brokeness (my heartbreak), sickness & crisis (sars), and prayers — that sharing in that in depth love… mmm We definately aren’t the picture perfect family but — once again that joy that cheer, that fullfillment to see that even though we’re not always “at right” with each other that we are united in Christ — put together by Him… and blessed….

Its awkward– because as teenagers and kids, we (or atleast me) take for granted the relationships with our family, we might know one closer parent say mom and as per chinese culture dad seems always remote — and its really hard to get to know them… you start growign up and you want to do your own thing — throw in rebellion & raging hormones, a bit of oedipus & electra complex… and its quite the image of chaos… hopelessness..

but to grow up — to be an adult, to be fully recognized as a man or woman (as per your gender) — and to build that relationship understanding where they come from in their instruction, knowing one’s place… and God’s sovereign grace in this construction of fmaily… it just blows my mind…. so in awe ~

like the other night, a few days ago — I couldn’t sleep, insomnia due to stress & serving (i havne’t had so much insomnia for like ever) anxiety, fear mix with some heat — so I went to see if my parents were sleeping yet and my mom wasn’t — this was around 1 so I just went over and we started talking about all sorts of things — university stuff, future girlfriend/wife :D, missions… China and TESL — and them just thinking a lot for my future — listening to what i think, supporting me — giving advice, praying for that future someone mmm.. so much love!

so yah… Praise God! i love relationships… sometimes i think i get kinda carried away with the ideals, the immaterial wealth — that I totally forgo those other things which are material, ah well.. INFJness

but yes family *hugs* i love you all!!