tears left uncried : stirring sugar.
I’ve been cringing with bits of despair, insufficiency, insecurity and what not today… lots of lies/attacks from the enemy in regards to prayer ministry, my role at ccf — and just the total inability to meet up with anyone to talk and share and place just to be genuine and sincere…
but God in His faithfulness & graciousness has not stopped to speak despite all emotion, experience.. on the bus ride to and from school He has reminded through C. J. Maheny’s sermon on “Who’s at Work Anyways?”
*Philippians 2:12-13 NKJV*
Therefore, my beloved, as you have always obeyed, not as in my presence only, but now much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling; for *it is God who works in you both to will and to do for His good pleasure.*
reminding me that in my desperation for Him, and though I am completely oblivious to His work, His Spirit moving before me, in me, and through me — that it is *He* That works — and His work is not in vain but “Mighty to Save” as a friend reminded me in a song.
and C.J. in his wisdom — shared a simple little analogy… about Grace — which in Ephesians Paul explains that the Richness & Fullness of God’s infinite grace — is available to us because we being adopted children, heirs — partake in that richness & fullness. & of course faith is our God given gift, ability to trust in Him — our capacity to receive Grace — via that ability to believe… and it is by grace through faith we are saved –
The analogy — referred to a cup of coffee/tea where a lot of the times we add sugar and taste the beverage and find it is still bitter — still not enough sugar — so we add more and more — but in reality the drink already has a lot of sugar — we merely need to stir it…
God has been putting on my heart — that very need to stir into the love that he has given me, else I can keep asking keep feeding on His grace — but I will still remain in my state now — wanting so much more but not realizing that He has already poured forth made to abound in me — so much grace in me — needing to be stirred and shared….
mmm revelation? is this why God has prevented me from meeting all those people whom could pour forth in me… mmm..
Praise you Jesus ~
Amen.