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I haven’t really gotten around to posting anything substantial in the past few weeks — but so much has changed, so many good things have happened; just seeing God’s Sovereignty, provision, and abundance of blessings… Praise God!

Not sure when I’ll ‘catch up’ posting ‘everything’ since essays & midterms are right around the corner, but I’ll do it, I promise.

*Spiritually*
Spiritually, I’ve been doing quite well — still going through the quiet wintery season where God hasn’t been saying too much, but doing a lot; building my character & relationship with Him through perseverance — and enduring through the seasons;

As most of you know I’ve been feeling quite a bit dissatisfied with my relationship with God lately… frustration in my pursuit to know Him; But something He’s been teaching me little by little that — in life, even though the destination — the goal is IMPORTANT, the journey there: the means, the working out, the triumphing over barriers, the teary-eyed frustrations — is where you grow.

So rather than fixating my attention on wanting to be better and higher (which is good– but not as a fixation); there is an importance to just rejoice and embrace today — no matter how ’spiritually far away,’ ‘distant,’ or whatever I might feel.

Just like Jesse shared — in Heaven we won’t get to ‘learn’ that God is good, we won’t get to learn that God is faithful even when we are faithless etc..

But yah, However silly, ridiculous, or whatever i might be– God delights in His children — in me, in you, in us; and as we abide in Him; His authority, power, assurance, peace, joy, He - abides in us (:

Life is good, but daddy you are better — lead me closer and deeper; I want more of you~