Restoration : Trusting in Him.
*Article:* Adrian Warnock: Reviving Prayer
Encouraging Article.
The above blog post was really encouraging these past few days especially because God has been teaching me to *totally and completely* trust in Him, Knowing that He is Jehovah Jireh - God Our provides! And it is He fills and restores what is empty to what is full and brimming over in the abundance of His Grace.
This school year, other than in inadequacy; God has been teaching me a lot about trusting in Him with my finances. The Holy Spirit would prod at my heart and out of nowhere I’d have that nudge to go and treat someone, or buy them a drink and talk with them. Then through a rapid succession of sermons and conversations, I felt God wanting me to trust in Him more by sponsoring a child with Compassion. Then going to Urbana, not knowing where the money would come from, and having that fully covered in full just the day before..
Then in this past month going to CCF retreat, having my cheque bounce and having to pay for two NSF charges; doubling the cost — and throwing my budget completely off… having everything just dropped into a haze, the money I’d have fallen back on taken away, and even work hours reduced to severe minimal… I don’t even know how I’m going to get to school after next week its ridiculous.., but God will provides.
I feel like a fool writing this here — before knowing what will happen but He has and will!
I feel like all this lacking — be it in skills, experience, job, money all of this God is stirring in me an increase of Faith, and perseverance just to wait up on Him– knowing and seeing my utter lack, my utter helplessness that pushes me to just cling onto Him more –
Just spending time with Him today — He reminded me of the story of the Feeding of the five thousand (thanks Joeie), where the little the little boy had — 5 loaves and 2 fish; Out of faith he gives the little he has to Jesus; and he is left completely empty for a moment, and Jesus multiplies it — and multiples it not only so that the boy and everyone else has enough, but by His Grace he gives in abundance, the scriptures say there were 12 baskets extra –
And thats sort of how I feel in regards to inadequacy / insufficiency for ministry, finances, life, relationship etc.. Its like yah.. I have so little but what I have — God, I have given it to you and now I’m like the little boy anxious, hungry and not having anything, but I wait for you — for I know you will provide, I know you shower your abundance down on me for I am direly in need;
So yah… was praying and playing my guitar and the spirit just prodded this old Vineyard song from 1987 which I don’t even know where I might have heard of.. but mmm so encouraging *hugs* thank you daddy!
*I Will Trust In You*
Danny DanielsVerse 1:
When I can’t see You, I know You’re here
When I can’t feel You, I will not fear
I will trust in You and I will not be afraid
And when the battle is close at hand
You are with me to help me stand
I will trust in You and I will not be afraidChorus:
I will not (I will not) Be afraid (Be afraid)
I will not (I will not) Be afraid (Be afraid)
I will trust in You (I will trust in You)
I will trust in You.Verse 2:
And when the darkness is closing in
And I am running against the wind
I will trust in You and I will not be afraid
‘Cause when I’m standing upon that shore
And all the battles, they’ve gone before
I will trust in You and I will not be afraid©1987 Mercy / Vineyard Publishing
So yah… I really don’t know but wait in anticipation (: I’ll write about how God has provided in abundance.. if you could pray for me that’d be great (: