indecision != inadequcy.
Comments(4) mmm.. website has been relocated to a new server, most links and stuff don’t work, right now sorry for the inconvenience, it probably won’t be up for a while..Just a quick simple sharing/observation of myself two weeks ago, when we had an informal CCF gathering at Hilda’s place, to pray/worship/share.
So basically what happened, was that I was asked to do prayer and/or lead a bit of worship for the night, and was given a book full of chords and songs to lead, but I felt like I didn’t know what to do, didn’t know what songs people might want to sing / know. So instead of picking songs I let everyone have their look see and decide, that of course failed quite miserably because of the bystander effect (everyone thinks someone else will do it), and the few songs that were picked were songs I have never really played / practiced before.. So when I looked at how ‘well’ I failed quite miserably, lots of inadequacy and everything..
Digging a bit deeper, its roots stretch out to how I see myself, as an individual, as a child of God, as part of the Body of Christ… to how I treat myself, and how/what I ascribe as ‘value’ to Perry… but yah… gotta seek God more in this.